Deja Vu

I was almost running.

Today. Today I had to have it done.

Half way up I started panicing. I remembered the flames. Red and yellow, orange with shades of green and blue and purple where the fire touched the ceiling. Till then I never knew this sight could be so fascinating.

I started gasping. I tried to walk slowly. My face was burning.

Here it is. The door. I knew what was on the other side, why was I afraid to see it?

Come closer, my dear. Come closer. Open it.

I could see them again - snow white embers.

I let go of the door handle. No.

Tomorrow. Tomorrow I will be ready.